Desires Were Tricky

For me, writing is about control.  Or more accurately, loss of control and sometimes writing for me feels like getting naked in public because well, I write deeply honest things that on my mind and I let a stranger know or read it.  But also, writing is my best chance at happiness and it is the riskiest thing I can do.  But that is how life is.  The riskiest things always yield the best, most beautiful things.

There was a time when someone questions me, why I never publish my stuff when I have to waste most of my time by writing. I know they were judging me by judging the words they have choose to use.  Look, I really do like writing but publish it never been my number one priority since day one.

If you are live with me, you’ll know that I never really separate from my laptop so I can use it anytime and anywhere to write.  So, I hate it every time I have to hear that question because obviously people don’t get me when I’m into writing more than I’m into Nichii.  Well, it not like I’m giving up my degree in education.  I still take the offer if the offer will choose me too.  But right now - somewhere in the middle, I have and need to focus on my writing.

You can call writing as my desire.  I can spend the rest of my day sitting in front of my laptop, writing something without no water or food or ever oxygen to breathe and I can repeat it day by day till the world end.