Regret

Talking about missing opportunities and seizing chances make me wonder.  There is always moments in our life when we think back to a certain point in time and tell ourselves that we should have done something. Most of the time, we choose to move passed it because we said to ourselves, ‘life must goes on’ and sometimes it too regretful that makes we wish every night we could go back in time and change it.

Regret is a difficult thing to have in our life because we can never really get rid of it.  Even the people who manage to redeem themselves, whatever they do now doesn’t change the fact that they didn’t do it before.  Life does not have a remote control.  There is no rewind, delete, and restart.

I have missed my late-grandmother (from my father’s side) very much since she was gone on May 06, 2007.It been almost six years now but it feel just like yesterday when I talked to her or having an argument with her and then we going cool, back together.  Days I regret: Never having said what should’ve been said, while I had the time, while she was still alive.

And I’m not ready to losing another one right now.  In fact, I will never ready for the rest of my life.  My grandfather (from my mother’s side), has been in hospital for a long while now and every time I come to invited him, I practically can’t control myself from not bursting into tears. I still try to cope with this situation and I have been listening to ‘My Love like a Star’ for a while now too.  It seems look like the most terrible idea; choosing a sad song as my motivation to stay strong but as for me, it’s work because my love for him just like the way it say in the song. Days I regret: I never have said what could’ve been said while I had his ear, while he was still near.

Regret can be devastating because it can mean you kill the potential of something else happening, something you may later realize you wanted but by then it’s too late.

So guys, don’t ever missing the opportunities and seizing the chances.

We Believe In Magical, Once

Remember when we were children and we looked at life in total wonder and awe?  Life was magical and exciting and the smallest things were utterly thrilling to us.  We were fascinated by the frost on the grass, a butterfly flittering through the air or any strange leaf or rock on the ground.

But somehow as we grew into adults, responsibilities, problems and difficulties took their toll on us.  We become disillusioned and the magic we once believed in as children faded and disappeared.

Let’s just face it; The reason why as adults we love to be around children, so that we can experience that feeling we once had, even if it’s just for a moment.

People Are Not Mirrors

You know, sometime you have to accept the fact that you can’t change everything in this world just like you wanted too.  That weren’t all that pretty – the entire thing they’ve been done and now they’ve been talking behind me about things they never say to me.

People can be cruel, sometimes – when they tried to hide their own guilt, they will point a finger across us to make us look like it was our fault.  Or when they can’t have what they wanted and they got frustration and in the end they feel angry and they just blame it on us.

As much as I feel like a victim in this ‘bullies game’, I’m always have a the clearer view in my mind because I don’t give a shit about the fact if they were already spread those little liars to everyone else.  Because seriously… "people are not mirrors; they see me completely differently than the way I see myself." 

Late Post

 (I love Glee more than you, actually. hehe...)

How was your valentine’s day? 

It has been a while.  I wanted to write something, anything but I have a very serious problem; writer block.  By that I meant, I wanted to write something but I couldn’t write it properly.

I have been busy too.  Guess what (probably you don’t really care, though) I has moved out from current resident and now, I have a new place to live – may I add – this is the place that I can really call as HOME because like The Turtles say ‘imagine me and you, and you and me…’

 

Oh, have you seen Glee: I Do?  And the Quintana’s scene?  I’m one of a crew in Brittana’s ship, but I guess I’m okay with Quintana though. 

Live Like There's No Tomorrow

Most people tend to remember the significance of time in a dangerous or urgent situation.  They realize that the only way that ‘time’ exists is in the reality that there is not enough of it.  There is never enough time in these moments of life and death.  How can there be?  When the possibility of an end stares us right in the eye, what is there to think about besides time?  What is there to remind ourselves of other than the fact that we suddenly might not have those extra hours we talked about earlier, or that idea of tomorrow that sounded so great this morning?

They say your life flashes before your eyes when you’re about to die but do you ever wonder if that also happens when someone you love is the person dying?  And instead of your life flashing before your eyes, it’s your life with that person?  Whatever the answer is, it all comes to the same conclusion.

There should have been more time.  We should have spent more time doing this with that person, or doing this with another person.  We should have spent more time saying these words or loving these moments.  We should have spent more time living to the last hour of the day.  We should have spent more time living like time was running out.  All those sentences have something in common; the idea of more time.

Unfortunately, it is one of those things that we’ll always long for, but never truly obtain.